Relearning Running

Making this pursuit less Sisyphean

I’ve always had this desire to have running as my go-to sport. As a kid who struggled with motor skills and coordination, I felt pangs of jealousy towards kids who are more athletic and coordinated than me. Eventually, that jealousy became learned helplessness, where I’ve resigned to beliefs that were limiting and negative.

Over the past few years, I’ve been making efforts to actively challenge them. Every day is an effort to reconnect with my body and my “core”, where I’ve learned to name and unpack each emotion and sensation, process my thoughts, and take on physical activities as part of regulation work. So far, there’s progress.

After I completed my first fun run two weeks ago, I’ve made a decision to relearn running and include it in my arsenal of physical activities. Inspired by Faith Kipyegon’s Breaking 4 attempt, I’ve made it my goal to run a full mile before the year ends.

Anyway, wish me luck in this endeavor. I hope to come out of this stronger and more engaged with life.

Until the next brain dump,
Lea